In The Mind Of Dyslexia

Disclaimer: Yes, some of the words are not spelled correctly, this is to show you how the words actually sound to me, and look in my head. This is a huge problem for me still, but auto-correct, and being able to talk to the phone have helped so much!

For those that are keeping up with my trying to help myself develop more skills to help me cope with my dyslexia, wow I found out so much information. I have always been curious about how to go about helping myself sharpen my skills to push against this label of dyslexia. It is quite clear that I in fact, have dyslexia. I am in no way saying I was misdignoised, actually I couldn’t be happier to know there is a reason for why I was struggling in school. Boy did I beat myself up for not being able to complete homework, do simple math, and things that most children struggle through with dyslexia. Now, after learning skills to help with my dyslexia, I want to sharpen up, and help myself learn some more coping skills as an adult. It is funny, I read just a simple explanination of dyslexia, and one thing stood out the most,” Some dyslexic children might not follow a pattern of progression seen in other children. The child may learn how to spell a word and completely forget the next day.” (https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/186787.php )

It is not with only spelling that is occurs, well at least for me, it is with most things especially, text book learning. I learn hands on, and I mean you have to show me, and then I have to do the task, maybe mess up, and then I have got it. Unfortunately, with textbook learning it is all with listening to a professor/teacher, or reading. Well on top of dyslexia, I have an auditory processing disorder, can you say double whammy! Haha, it’s almost comemical to try to explain what it is like for me to learn. If I am not learning in a hands on way, or I can not see the image, or word in my head to be able to figure it out, you have lost me in the learning department. This made school quite a challenge, ,because even though I’d go to class, do the homework, and do a crazy amount of studying, it was as if I never learned about it. Now, I did absorb some things, but I do have a problem retaining information, and it has gotten worse over the years. Even though I did well in college, I worked ten times harder to be able to create a way for me to try to remember everything that was being taught to me. It’s quite a frustrating process considering, I absolutely love to learn. If I was able to retain information, in a normal compaticity, then I would have so much to talk about. I am always researching something, but unfortunately, I don’t always remember everything, so even though the entire thing that I’m explaining may make sense to me, to others this could be difficult to understand, because I am leaving out important information that I can not recall to explain what I have just learned to them. It is actually explained in this simple, but very accurate article, ” When a person with dyslexia expresses a sequence of ideas, they may seem illogical or unconnected.” I tend to do this a great deal, starting to talk about a topic I may have been thinking about in my head, but I explain it mid-thought, which can lead to some very confused looks; and then I realize, oh I didn’t actually introduce this topic, I kind of just started talking, but left out why I am talking about the topic in the first place. By the way, I may not realize I have done this, and usually the person has to convey their confusion. Just like I may have a perfectly rational thought, or idea that may make sense, but it comes out in the wrong sequence, and doesn’t make sense. This can also happen when I am talking just in a normal conversation, I may mumble, or say a word in a weird way, but I have no idea it’s coming out this way. In my mind I am speaking clearly, and articulating my thought. Usually my mind works about ten times faster than I can actually process what I’m saying, and it may come out in a weirdly worded sentence. I have found that writing has become a lot easier since taking up blogging. I am able to transfer my thoughts a lot faster. It’s not to say that I don’t mess up my spelling, and grammar, because that happens all the time. And, I am well rounded with my speech as well, I can conduct intelligent conversations, and hold them, it may just take me a few more seconds to process what you are saying, but you probably wouldn’t notice in a normal conversation, unless you were paying very close attention. And I tend to talk faster so I can get my thought out before forgetting it, I have been working on not cutting people off, I only would do this because I will literally forget to what I am going to say, and who knows, it may take me a few seconds, ten minutes, or a few hours to remember what I am going to say.

I have learned a lot of ways to cope with both of these diagnois, but I decided to really research. As you now know, I love to learn, I crave learning, especially if it’s a topic I am excited about. I don’t know if you read my essential oils article, but I talk about why I am so excited to research, and learn about essential oils. If there is something I am learning about, I am usually blogging about it. I started to blog to sharpen my writing skills, and help me acquire a stronger writing presence. I took something I wasn’t always comfortable doing, and forced myself to become better. I haven’t always loved to write, it was one of my major struggles in school. I would leave out vowels, and switch letters around; you would have to decode what I was trying to say. I also wrote my letters really big, I could not get the concept of writing smaller letters on the lined paper for the longest time. I still have a perception issues, usually with how much space I will need on a line to write out a sentence, or word. Writing signs is not my specialty at all because of the space recongization problem. These are all minor things though, it does not really hurt my everyday life, unless someone asks me to write, or paint a sign, and I start to get a little sweaty. Without outwardly showing it, these things do give me a bit of anxiety, because I know that it is a challenge, and I may mess it up. Asking someone to paint you a sign that has something written on it, usually would be a simple task. Because of my perception problem it is a challenging task for me. I only bring this example up, because this recently happened. Spelling may be one of my number one things I’d love to be able to correct. I have really done a 360 with spelling, and have even seen a change within the last year. Making myself write almost everyday, I tend to misspell a word until one day, I have misspelled it so may times, that I finally know the proper spelling. It is like I said, in the beginning I learn from hands on experience, and the repetition ( by the way, just corrected the word, “repetition” on my own, without spell check. To me this is a bit exciting, as I can now see the correct way of how to spell repetition in my head, which means I should spell it correctly from now on, so yeah!) of writing almost everyday has helped to improve these skills.

Well, I think I have given you all enough of an ear, well technically an eye full, since you all are reading this, haha. I will discuss this further, and talk about some more of my everyday coping methods; I usually forget they are coping strategies, since I have been doing them for a good portion of my life.

Aloha,

Allie